I know it was unrealistic to think we would get a BFP the first cycle back with Dr. S but in the back of my mind the thought was there.
This month I really tried to step out of the box and be positive....say it was not going to effect my state of mind. Every time i went in for an U/S and heard the words "well its not looking good" I said well maybe I just need a few extra days. (I ovulated and got preggo with Paige on cd#28) My last u/s was cd#21 and I had many eggs on both sides but they were all small so the doc gave me a scrip for next cycle and told me to call when I get my AF. I still was not ready to give up. I saw white discharge many days around cd23-28 and thought just maybe my body was ovulating....but I never got the egg white stuff SO I am assuming it was a tease. So here I sit CD#31 just waiting for AF. BOOOO
I love my girl so much it hurts, is it so wrong of me to want to give her a sibling? Why does this have to be SO HARD FOR ME????
Where is my positive now? This process SUCKS!
