I miss her

We are coming off a very long weekend. It was the Bills homeopener so of course we had out of town guest. Michele & Brendan came in from Milford and Pat came in from Providence. Michele watched Paige on Friday and she did great. Paige was super happy and even took a 2 1/2 hour nap for Michele in her crib. (what a good girl) Mil took Paige Saturday morning for her first swimming lession at the YMCA. She did really well, I will go to watch them next Saturday. Marilynn had her overnight Saturday and Sunday. Yesterday I started to miss her and today I just cant stand it. I cant wait to get out of here at 4:30 to go get her. My little Angel.......she is just an amazing kid. Its amazing how soon you forget what it took to make her, carry her, deliver her. But I would do it 10 times over if it meant getting the same beautiful result. I will have her alot this week on my own. Jonesey is working crazy hours at work and a few overnights. All to myself and I dont even care if she up all night..........:) Well maybe I do alittle because I do still have to go to work.

Here I am again

Wow I cant believe Paige is 7 months old this Saturday!!!! What a long road it has been for us. She just started sleeping through the night about 3 weeks ago. She has a cold currently which makes her cranky but for the most part she is the most amazing child I have ever seen (probably because she is my own:) She continues to amaze me every day with something new. Makes life so wonderful and gives it a purpose. She is everything and more I hoped she would be.

I am still dealing with major anxiety in regards to her, her health, well being, development etc..... Why cant I just let go and enjoy. Someone once told me not to wish away her milestones. Its so true. I am always saying "when she can crawl, walk, talk, ride a bike........I forget all the milestones she has already hit. Sitting up, saying babababa,mamamamama (once), giggling so much her sides hurt, eating solids like a big girl, sitting in her highchair, holding her own bottle. Ahhh where have these 7 months gone.

Last night we were walking the Bills against the Pats and she was laughing and standing with some assistance and hubby and I were laughing so hard because she was cracking up so much. It sounds stupid but was a great moment. She is and always be the center of our life. As long as she is happy and healthy I am good........


Love you little girl
Momma